Death the ultimate thing

I am sure that there are accidental and unnatural deaths everyday but these deaths either go unnoticed because it happens outside the country, or in a remote place or because a single person dies.

It is only when a group of people die that they get the nation’s attention but there is nothing much that can be done except mourn.

Firstly the death of the six boys which was avoidable then the death of 13 people in an earthquake which was unavoidable and lately the death of 18 in the Nepal crash followed by nine deaths in a bus accident.

All the news about deaths makes me think if that is the ultimate truth of life. Once a human, turns into a handful of dust within no time. I wonder if the world will change after my death or if I will ever be missed. Life will just go on for others and people will talk about me only for a while and I will be forgotten with time.

We Buddhist believe in rebirths and sometimes I wonder what I will be reborn as. It will be an entirely new life with new surroundings and new relatives but what if we are born to the same family? The thought excites me.

You have gained weight!

Lately I have been gaining a lot of weight which has been distracting me a lot because the clothes I wear do not fit me well. And I get exhausted after I walk a mile.

There are a lot of other factors that prove that I have really put on weight and the most accurate prove is my mirror.

Every morning I look at my mirror and the mirror looks at me. I can see that the girl in the mirror has chubby cheeks and a big belly (so unlike me) but I know mirrors do not lie. I have tried exercise but my laziness could not cope up with it. Then I tried dieting, but my craving for food could not put up with that too. So I finally decided that I don’t want to try anything and let nature decide for me.

After all I ate the same amount of food earlier and I was as lazy as now and I still was thin.

But my weight does disturb me most of the time and to add on that every time I meet an old friend or someone I know they always comment on my weight. “You have gained weight,” say some while there were others who say I have become fat.

A foreigner friend of mine truly said that Bhutanese are very rude because all they ever do is comment on each other’s weight even if they are meeting after a long gap. It was true and I realized I was also doing the same. It was true that whenever two friends met the first conservation they started with was weight. “Hey you have put on weight,” is then followed with other conversation such as how have you been and others.

After my friend told me this I started being conscious of what I said to my friend the first time I met them. I know how I feel when others tell me I have become fat so I don’t want other to feel the same.